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[04 Dec 2009|12:20am] |
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'Nuff said.
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| These days, you don't have to sleep to have a nightmare. |
[24 Nov 2009|11:11pm] |
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“Our last accounting showed there are 46 (dead) already," said Nerona. “Twenty-two were found above ground while 24 were dug up today."
Authorities had earlier recovered on Monday the bodies of 22 victims killed in the politically-motivated massacre. They were among a group of some 50 men and women, including lawyers and journalists, who were abducted by an estimated one hundred armed men reportedly belonging to the camp of Governor Andal Ampatuan of Maguindanao province. They were about to file a certificate of candidacy in behalf of Esmael “Toto" Mangudadatu, vice mayor of Buluan town, who planned to run against Ampatuan’s son Andal Jr. for the gubernatorial post. Chief Superintendent Josefino Cataluna, police regional director for Soccsksargen, said the police have already identified 20 of the fatalities. Among them are Toto’s wife, Genalin Mangudadatu, and Toto's sister Eden Mangudadatu, the incumbent Vice Mayor of Mangudadatu town in Maguindanao. [Read more here.]
...Shariff Aguak, the provincial capital, is widely known as Ampatuan turf. [ Maguindanao Vice Mayor Datu Ismail "Toto" Mangudadatu ] sent his female relatives in the belief that his political rivals would not hurt them, in consideration of Islamic tradition to respect women. [Read more here.]
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Nothing makes you forget about your deadlines, your current financial status, or your other worldly concerns like 46 lives snuffed out for the lust of power.
( I was in shock. And then, I was in tears. )
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| on disappointments |
[15 Nov 2009|04:22pm] |
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Hindi porke't sinabi n'yang mahal ka n'ya eh hindi na s'ya gagawa ng ikasasama ng loob mo.
Pero minsan, hindi rin naman n'ya sinasadyang saktan ka. Meron lang talagang mga taong salat sa IQ at EQ; hindi nila narirealize na meron silang utak na puwedeng gamitin at pusong puwedeng makaramdam. Minsan, hindi lang talaga nila nahahalata na isang maling salita, isang maling galaw, isang maling buga ng kapalaran lang eh bibigay ka na ng tuluyan.
Lahat ng tao eh merong lapse in judgement. Tao nga lang naman. Hindi nga perpekto, 'di ba?
Hindi mo lang siguro maintindihan kung bakit sa lahat ng tao, eh siya pa 'yung nanggaganyan.
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| angel and the NBDB lecture series |
[12 Nov 2009|08:16pm] |
Having attended the NBDB's lecture series on How to Read this Generation's Fiction and Creative Non-fiction for the past two days, hanging out with classmates/fellow aspiring writers after, and mulling over a lot of things in between looooooong hours of commute home (living two and a half hours from civilization does have its little perks), a handful of puzzle pieces with regard to the craft, the art and the things in between have finally fallen into place in my head.
( i heart jooooo. )
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| money. |
[22 Oct 2009|11:54pm] |
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Never has what I need been clearer than this very moment.
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| define life. |
[17 Oct 2009|01:58am] |
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Deadlines, Short Messages Sent, Rants/Raves, and 1.8 Kg Laptops-in-a-Backpack.
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| aha! |
[16 Oct 2009|01:05am] |
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My uber-rationality and control can now be explained in one word.
Existentialist.
Now, the problem is... where did I get the existentialism from?
Oh, and also, insomnia.
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| you know you're bored when you: |
[22 Sep 2009|03:22pm] |
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1. Change your YM status every five minutes.
2.Change your Multiply page layout on a whim. This constitutes either or both of the following: make a page banner from scratch, and do the codes manually. In my case, it was both. I also had to change the frame settings for 80% of my Multi photo albums to 'None (Minimal)'. Yes, I was THAT bored.
3. Read your past blog posts from the last to the first.
4. WILF.
5. Cyberstalk everyone from Hugh Laurie to your classmates, your neighbors and the most random people at all possible social networking/blogging sites. I haven't gone as far as Googling my name though -- I've done that before, and it really wasn't as fun as I thought.
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It's 3:20 PM on a Tuesday and I'm at the office over the premise that I was supposed to go to a presentation. I haven't received word as to what time the damn presentation is. -_-"
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| dating thyself |
[17 Sep 2009|01:20pm] |
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Mae - This Time is the Last Time |
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What I bought my date. ^_^
(Sir G highly recommended Goldberg's book in last term's Fic class. John Gardner, in the meantime, was Raymond Carver's mentor; Carver who, in turn, is Master Haruki Murakami's idol. Both for just P440 at Heritage. AyLavet!)
( Status: Out on a date. )
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| great time |
[12 Sep 2009|03:06am] |
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...with blockmates. (I missed you guys. See you again in three months!)
...with the Kapatid reunion. (I got a free beer from their drummer despite 6UG supposedly running out of alcohol because he accidentally stepped on me. Haha. Thanks for the heads up, Pao!)
In four hours, I will have to wake up to haul my ass to school and get my EAF. (semi-cheapshot mode ON!) Time doesn't really ever stop for the likes of me; but some days - like these - I don't mind.
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| true friends |
[11 Sep 2009|01:44am] |
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...just hand over the roll of tissue with no questions asked.
Saw The Bucket List. One word: Beautiful.
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| [ MFA ] the grades are in! |
[09 Sep 2009|11:40pm] |
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3.5 in DLSU grad school is 4.0 to DLSU undergrad is to 1.0 in UP.
Cue me, "Ahh, 3's. Not b-- WAIT. Pakingsiyet. 3.5?!"
( No, REALLY? )
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| words of wisdom. |
[09 Sep 2009|03:11pm] |
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- You cannot live in a vacuum, much less write in it.
- Sift things, incidents, circumstances through their proper filters. You do it semi-reflexively half the time, anyway. Control it, and it will keep you - and the others around you - from going insane.
- No matter what Shadow Voice tells you, you are not alone. A friend said it best a couple of months back: You have no right to be depressed. There are tons of people who love you to bits.
- Naligaw lang si Prince Charming. And he's too stubborn (bagay kayo) to ask for directions.
- That, or, he really needs to get hit on the head by something huge and heavy. Note to yourself: Get an elephant, make like Willy E. Coyote, and stake out at the cliff nearest him.
- Rationalization is intellectualized repression compounded by denial. Stop telling yourself it's better than just pushing everything in.
- Again, tell Shadow Voice to STFU. The day you give up writing will be the day you vanquish your soul.
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| Choice: Insecurity |
[05 Sep 2009|09:29pm] |
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"Being insecure is a choice. It's a choice I made for myself because sucking it up and being strong about every damn thing seems to me like a very un-human quality. If life is constructed the way fiction is, and all fictional characters have flaws, then why can't I?"
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| to go or not to go. |
[01 Sep 2009|07:51pm] |
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RK - Towa no Mirai |
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This guy from my MFA class is asking me to come to the launch of his poetry book on Friday and I don't have anyone to go with. Crap.
( that is the question. )
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| this is why you don't add your mother on FB. |
[28 Aug 2009|05:11pm] |
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Full convo here.
The FB thread that resulted from this pic.
In fairness, it wasn't as messy as I initially imagined it to be. ^_^; (Also. About the cigs, I KNOW! Half-truth, lie. Same thing. One revelation a day. >_>;)
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